Journeying Forward. . . .

It's only a few hours before it becomes 2009 and here I am. 2008 was full of a lot of ups and downs. And here I am. Living in Texas, working at Starbucks, and wondering what my life will be like in a few short months. I've never been one to be contemplative about the new year or make my list of resolutions, yet somehow this new year I'm almost holding my breath in anticipation.

I feel like it's going to be a year where I see God move. . . . I guess every year is really. Maybe that's what it means to really follow Christ. To know that every day and every moment with Him is truly a journey of adventure, of trial, of joys, of pains, of hopes, of losses. So what will 2009 hold?

Lord, I want so badly to love you more. I want so badly to own Your love for me. I want to see You in every moment. I want to see the mundane as ministry and not be waiting till "I get there." I want to live in the peace of the moment and not in the race of performance. I want to rest. I want to find freedom from the past, from my family, from perfection, from striving. I want to rejoice on where You take me, whether painful or joyous, whether humble or glorious. Lord, truly my prayer is to see You with less of clouded vision and more in the beauty of who You are. Take this year. Take my dreams. Take my plans. Take my hopes. Take my fears. Take my worries. Take my hesitations. Take my desires. Take my needs. Take me.

I am a sojourner on a search for the depth of God. I pray this next year that I come closer.